I was cleared last Friday.
I’ve run twice in the past 5 days. By the word “run” I mean like no more than 2 miles at a time waaaay under my tempo pace on purpose. Reigning in my pace has been very VERY difficult. I see that 10:00+ pace on my Garmin and my mind does crazy tricks, but I’m determined to not screw this up.
Yes. I didn’t run and tell ya’ll every last detail.
Why? Because of many reasons, but I’ll just share a few.
1) I think my leg still hurts. It doesn’t really hurt at all while running. In fact it’s like 98% pain-free. It’s 3 hours later when it starts to nag, and I’m not sure it’s really nagging at me or I’m just psychotic and believing there’s more pain there than there really is because I feel like there should be pain.Can ya dig it?
2) Because publicly announcing that I’m running again brings attention to the fact that I’m actually doing it, thus I end up thinking about it more now that people know I’m running (especially when I’m constantly asked about it at work and in my day-to-day life), and I am continuing to try and not obsess and place such high importance of running in my brain…ahem I mean life…(RUN-ON SENTENCE MUCH?!?! ;))
3) Because it could all be gone again tomorrow (or at least that’s how I feel)
4) Because I was told this weekend that I’m a big whiny baby when it comes to my injury (a statement that was said to me no less than 3 times in a real-life encounter in 10 minutes by a blog reader). Although truth be told I’m handling this injury in such a way that is NOT disruptive of my life, nor has it been to others, and in such a way that I can be proud of. You don’t have to continue to read if you disagree. I won’t stop you. Not gonna lie. It shook me to the core and made me question my future on here.
So there ya have it. I’m following my coach/doc’s plans for me. I’m slowly, and I mean VERY SLOWLY, easing back into it with absolutely no expectations of where I should be or where I will be in any given time frame. I’m thankful for every single step I’m able to take out on the road. I will continue to work hard to fight, but in a way that is healthy for me in both mind, body, and spirit.
There is no need to remind me to go slow. Slow is the name of the game. I refuse to go through this again.
So let’s get back at it, friends…
Is that OK with you?