So let’s get real.

I’m running.

For now.

I was cleared last Friday.

I’ve run twice in the past 5 days. By the word “run” I mean like no more than 2 miles at a time waaaay under my tempo pace on purpose. Reigning in my pace has been very VERY difficult. I see that 10:00+ pace on my Garmin and my mind does crazy tricks, but I’m determined to not screw this up.

Yes. I didn’t run and tell ya’ll every last detail.

Why? Because of many reasons, but I’ll just share a few.

1) I think my leg still hurts. It doesn’t really hurt at all while running. In fact it’s like 98% pain-free. It’s 3 hours later when it starts to nag, and I’m not sure it’s really nagging at me or I’m just psychotic and believing there’s more pain there than there really is because I feel like there should be pain.Can ya dig it?

2) Because publicly announcing that I’m running again brings attention to the fact that I’m actually doing it, thus I end up thinking about it more now that people know I’m running (especially when I’m constantly asked about it at work and in my day-to-day life), and I am continuing to try and not obsess and place such high importance of running in my brain…ahem I mean life…(RUN-ON SENTENCE MUCH?!?! ;))

3) Because it could all be gone again tomorrow (or at least that’s how I feel)

4) Because I was told this weekend that I’m a big whiny baby when it comes to my injury (a statement that was said to me no less than 3 times in a real-life encounter in 10 minutes by a blog reader). Although truth be told I’m handling this injury in such a way that is NOT disruptive of my life, nor has it been to others, and in such a way that I can be proud of. You don’t have to continue to read if you disagree. I won’t stop you. Not gonna lie. It shook me to the core and made me question my future on here.

So there ya have it. I’m following my coach/doc’s plans for me. I’m slowly, and I mean VERY SLOWLY, easing back into it with absolutely no expectations of where I should be or where I will be in any given time frame. I’m thankful for every single step I’m able to take out on the road. I will continue to work hard to fight, but in a way that is healthy for me in both mind, body, and spirit.

There is no need to remind me to go slow. Slow is the name of the game. I refuse to go through this again.

So let’s get back at it, friends…

Is that OK with you?

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6 Responses to So let’s get real.

  1. craftycritter says:

    Don’t let one negative person ruin something pleasant for you. To me it seems like writing here is therapeutic for you and it doesn’t matter if the topic is positive or negative. And for that one negative person there are a ton of people you are inspiring, like me.

  2. Kasey says:

    Ignore that negative Nelly. I had a bone bruise on my talus from running, and spent 8 weeks in a boot. I didn’t start running again after that for 6 months because simple things like hiking 5 miles would make it do that nagging, throbbing, something’s still not 100% ache. You’re not being a whiner, you’re being aware of your body.
    Cross training has become my best friend. I also changed my stride from heel-striking to midfoot, and that really seems to have helped (plus it made me calves finally get that definition I thought only hardcore runners ever had!). It took nearly a year, and I still have to remind myself not to try to do too much (though achey shins for a week slowed me down again recently).
    The hardest part for me is when my training plan says 20 miles, and I know I’ve only got 16 left in my legs for the week. I want to push myself to get that long run on paper, but I don’t want to be clomping around in a boot instead of finishing my first marathon this fall. I’d rather have to walk part of it and finish than push too hard and never get to the starting line.

    GOOD LUCK! Enjoy your miles, no matter how many or how few.

  3. Kristi Altenburg says:

    I agree….I enjoy reading your blogs..running or not! You are real….I love that about your blog. I think you and I would get along just great in person! You go girl!

  4. Katie Murphy says:

    Glad you are back to running! Take it slow. Have been there before and am back there again, so I can totally relate. Look forward to reading about your return!

  5. If you have trouble going slow run/walk/run Galloway style is the way to go. Before I was injured I had trouble keeping it easy. This forces me to keep it easy and I’ve never looked back. I absolutely love it.

  6. Maria says:

    Slow and steady wins the race. It’s not the time on the Garmin. It’s the fact that you’re running again! That’s what’s important but not so important that it takes over control of your life and you don’t know what to do without it (I had to try my own run on sentence. :) ) I really hope that we can get together some time! I miss you friend!

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